I'm going deep into my Self these days, allowing time for a deep attunement with my Creative Center. What's more I want to tell you all about it...Each day is a treasure hunt to allow this creation to come into being. Hopefully you will gain some inspiration from the trail.
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Inner and Outer Worlds
I feel like I'm on the verge of a breakthrough. I started listening to my Inner Self again seriously just a few weeks ago in the midst of a crisis. It is my way of coping when things get tough, and I have had to delve deep to find some way to ease the pain. It worked! I prayed, meditated, chanted and danced my way out of it... threw Tarot cards, journaled, played my didjeridoo and walked until my heart was calm again.
It gave me a taste of what might be possible if I could go longer without getting distracted by my life. The funny thing was that I got out some old journals from 1995 and reread the entries. It seems that at that time I was on the verge of a big breakthrough too...it was so close that each day I could catch a glimpse of that inner world.
You see the inner world and the outer world, they're both here at every moment. It is just the focus that changes.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Synthesis
I want to write something today for my new blog. It is a glorious day today after the rains and winds from the hurricane have blown through town leaving the sky an intense bright blue and all the leaves shiny and clean.
Last night they talked about how “Nothing should disturb your peace.” A huge disturbance in a close relationship finds me scrambling to get my inner peace back together again. The hurricane has blown right through my heart. I am left picking up the pieces and looking for some new way to be. I have lost track of my center. I have given away my power again. Loved too much, or perhaps just not wisely enough.
What is my peace?
Something I need to nourish. It is that calm and centered feeling when I am most like a pool of deep cool water. When I am angry, upset and jealous it all disappears, gets fragmented, clouded.
Dances of Universal Peace - the Dancing really helps. Touching hearts and hands with others, twirling, floating on the beautiful rhythms and inspiring words. It brings me back to myself, and leaves me at peace with my fellow dancers. With them at least I feel calm and alive after the dancing.
Everything we desire from life is light (energy).
I definitely want energy from others, but I want it in certain ways and only from certain people. Perhaps I am not synthesizing enough energy on my own. I want too much from one other person when I am capable of soaking up that energy directly from God on my own.
Of course I don’t remember that when I am all caught up in the drama of unrequited love. That delusion leads me to believe that what I want must come from the object of my desire. But when that person goes away and I am left so terribly alone, then I start to synthesize it for myself.
Things that make me peaceful are:
Walking in nature
Singing peaceful songs
Dancing peaceful dances
Speaking kindly with others
Being by large bodies of water, the ocean, lakes and ponds
Writing and thinking things through
What makes you peaceful?
Monday, September 13, 2004
Things I learned on Kabbalah.com
Kabbalah.com is an excellent website!
Everything we desire from life is light (energy).
It is a natural law of nature where the final outcome of any process in life is always the opposite of the first impression.
The physical world around us is an illusion of our five senses.
Most of us never detect the seed and root cause behind a difficult situation
We solve one set of problems and then a whole new set appears somewhere else.
Everything that happens happens for a reason.
Don’t trust the five senses!
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Attunement
I am struggling to set the direction today. I am quite unsure of what to do. I think the message for me is to learn more about using my own power, and focusing on my own goals.
I have had a lovely weekend of relaxing. The Dances of Universal Peace was wonderful and calm and it felt very good to be communing with the beloved with like-hearted beings. I really don’t want to go to a church and sit in a hard chair and read things out of books etc. To dance and sing and smile at other human beings… that seems to work for me. I am going to do this regularly now. I really just need to manage my own energy and navigate as best as I can with the tools that I have. That is really all I can do. I changed magic to attunement. I think it is a profound change, and it has come out of this lesson I have been working on this month.
Attunement definitely demands relaxation, because I have to pay attention to myself. I can’t do that when I am running around and being too involved in other people’s lives. I need to relax, focus, listen, and make whatever adjustments are necessary… just like tuning an instrument. When my instrument is properly tuned I can create waves of harmony in the world. When I am out of tune nothing I do will resonate well. Wow… that says it all for me today.
I have had a lovely weekend of relaxing. The Dances of Universal Peace was wonderful and calm and it felt very good to be communing with the beloved with like-hearted beings. I really don’t want to go to a church and sit in a hard chair and read things out of books etc. To dance and sing and smile at other human beings… that seems to work for me. I am going to do this regularly now. I really just need to manage my own energy and navigate as best as I can with the tools that I have. That is really all I can do. I changed magic to attunement. I think it is a profound change, and it has come out of this lesson I have been working on this month.
Attunement definitely demands relaxation, because I have to pay attention to myself. I can’t do that when I am running around and being too involved in other people’s lives. I need to relax, focus, listen, and make whatever adjustments are necessary… just like tuning an instrument. When my instrument is properly tuned I can create waves of harmony in the world. When I am out of tune nothing I do will resonate well. Wow… that says it all for me today.
Saturday, September 11, 2004
What is Creativity Magic?
What is Creativity Magic?
Let me see if I can define it for myself.
Creativity is where things arise in the mind that weren’t there before. For example I might have a ball of yarn. I might have several ideas of what to do with the yarn… I could knit a sweater for a friend, crochet a baby blanket, make an ojo, a dream catcher or use it as a toy for a cat. The possibilities are endless because the creative part of the mind can always come up with one more idea. In fact it can nearly always come up with twenty more ideas for anything you care to think about.
Problems occur in our rational mind. This is the part of the brain that measures and judges, “Too little of this, too much of that.” It can never be content because it always has questions and comparisons.
The answers to the questions come from the creative realm. The creative realm is part of a much larger connection that we all have to everything that is. It monitors what is going on in the larger universe and attempts to communicate with our rational mind and senses in several interesting ways.
Let me see if I can define it for myself.
Creativity is where things arise in the mind that weren’t there before. For example I might have a ball of yarn. I might have several ideas of what to do with the yarn… I could knit a sweater for a friend, crochet a baby blanket, make an ojo, a dream catcher or use it as a toy for a cat. The possibilities are endless because the creative part of the mind can always come up with one more idea. In fact it can nearly always come up with twenty more ideas for anything you care to think about.
Problems occur in our rational mind. This is the part of the brain that measures and judges, “Too little of this, too much of that.” It can never be content because it always has questions and comparisons.
The answers to the questions come from the creative realm. The creative realm is part of a much larger connection that we all have to everything that is. It monitors what is going on in the larger universe and attempts to communicate with our rational mind and senses in several interesting ways.
Friday, September 10, 2004
Creativity - Magic - Communication
Creativity - Magic - Communication
Up until now I have always said that my possibility is self-expression and creativity as soulmaking, but from now on I am going to refer to what I do spiritually and soul wise as magic. Not only do I want to be magical and creative but I want to turn others on to it also.
Well I just ran a web search and it was kind of discouraging. Looking at Magic and Creativity there is a lot of focus on a kind of Harry Potter type magic. I don’t want that. I am not talking about things to buy or magic spells etc. I am talking about getting in touch with your inner being and bringing it forth into form. This Creativity Magic is a whole new persona that I need to let out of the closet, go public.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Tarot - The Queen of Cups
The Queen of Cups
Key Words: the watery aspect of water, as above so below; emotions shown openly; motherhood; emotional integrity.
The Queen’s form is enclosed in light-beams, so you only see her if you look closely. Her being cannot be understood intellectually. You must feel and sense it. She is shrouded in mystery and if you wish to comprehend this mystery, you will have to go deeply into the realm of sensitivity and feeling.
The calm sea on which she rests mirrors her image almost perfectly. What she radiates outwardly is reflected (or is a reflection of) the deepest emotional reaches of her being. She is in contact with her feelings and shows them openly and authentically. The people around her may not always understand her, but that is not a problem for her. She will not compromise emotionally, for in order to do so, she would have to deny herself, and might loose the glow of her beauty in doing so.
The white lotus blossoms on the lake, and in her hand, symbolize love of a giving nature. Lotus roots come out of the dark, muddy depths of the water, but the leaves and petals of the lotus remain untouched by the mud and water. Water rolls off the petals, or rests on them as beads of water. They remain connected to the water and mud, growing from them, but are different and separate. Blossoming love too, grows from unconscious realms of instinct and drive, and is fed by it. The light of consciousness causes unconscious energies to arise in a new form. The old appears in a new light, is transfigured, and emotional rebirth has taken place.
The stork, messenger of the returning spring, is harbinger of the new. This card can be seen as having some connection with motherhood. The lotus in the Queen’s hand is also the lotus of Isis, the Great Mother. Cancer, the Crab, in the shell-shaped cup also indicates the domestic realm of the family.
Indication: By showing your feelings openly you become beautiful. There may be people who don’t understand you; don’t concern yourself about it! There are enough others with whom you can share your feelings.
Question: Are you open to your emotions and feelings?
Suggestion: Trust your feelings! Live in harmony with them!
Affirmation: My openness and vitality makes me beautiful.
This card makes me think of the house with the pond over on Hermine Street. It is for rent but the landlord won’t rent to dogs. I love the pond. Nearly every day we see the blue heron there standing in the water at the edge of the pond. This morning there were about twelve Canada Geese in the yard.
I am thinking today about the URL creativitymagic.com. Does it capture the essence of what I’m shifting towards? Shape shifting has begun!
I seem to plunging to the depths of my soul these days. Mostly it is good although there have been some difficult moments. My spiritual quest has turned up fragments of myself that need to woven into a colorful serape...a new public me.
Key Words: the watery aspect of water, as above so below; emotions shown openly; motherhood; emotional integrity.
The Queen’s form is enclosed in light-beams, so you only see her if you look closely. Her being cannot be understood intellectually. You must feel and sense it. She is shrouded in mystery and if you wish to comprehend this mystery, you will have to go deeply into the realm of sensitivity and feeling.
The calm sea on which she rests mirrors her image almost perfectly. What she radiates outwardly is reflected (or is a reflection of) the deepest emotional reaches of her being. She is in contact with her feelings and shows them openly and authentically. The people around her may not always understand her, but that is not a problem for her. She will not compromise emotionally, for in order to do so, she would have to deny herself, and might loose the glow of her beauty in doing so.
The white lotus blossoms on the lake, and in her hand, symbolize love of a giving nature. Lotus roots come out of the dark, muddy depths of the water, but the leaves and petals of the lotus remain untouched by the mud and water. Water rolls off the petals, or rests on them as beads of water. They remain connected to the water and mud, growing from them, but are different and separate. Blossoming love too, grows from unconscious realms of instinct and drive, and is fed by it. The light of consciousness causes unconscious energies to arise in a new form. The old appears in a new light, is transfigured, and emotional rebirth has taken place.
The stork, messenger of the returning spring, is harbinger of the new. This card can be seen as having some connection with motherhood. The lotus in the Queen’s hand is also the lotus of Isis, the Great Mother. Cancer, the Crab, in the shell-shaped cup also indicates the domestic realm of the family.
Indication: By showing your feelings openly you become beautiful. There may be people who don’t understand you; don’t concern yourself about it! There are enough others with whom you can share your feelings.
Question: Are you open to your emotions and feelings?
Suggestion: Trust your feelings! Live in harmony with them!
Affirmation: My openness and vitality makes me beautiful.
This card makes me think of the house with the pond over on Hermine Street. It is for rent but the landlord won’t rent to dogs. I love the pond. Nearly every day we see the blue heron there standing in the water at the edge of the pond. This morning there were about twelve Canada Geese in the yard.
I am thinking today about the URL creativitymagic.com. Does it capture the essence of what I’m shifting towards? Shape shifting has begun!
I seem to plunging to the depths of my soul these days. Mostly it is good although there have been some difficult moments. My spiritual quest has turned up fragments of myself that need to woven into a colorful serape...a new public me.
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Creativity Magic
Notes from my Daily Horoscope for today from Tarot.com
No matter what tasks come before you, prioritize them to make time for your own interests. You may be onto something bigger than your daily chores and if you don't pursue the opportunity, you'll never forgive yourself.
Instead of moving from one thought to the next, we slow down and go deeper, and bring up old memories that are connected to the present situations. Take time to pull back into your protective shell. Spend some comfortable time at home or with your friends and family. But above all, create the time and space to nurture yourself.
Notes From The Magical Approach – Seth Speaks About the Art of Creative Living by Jane Roberts
About Time:
The time that any artistic creation is involved with follows earth’s own time however. The creator’s time rises out of the seasons and the tides, even though in your society you make a great effort to fit the creator’s time into what I call assembly-time time. If you are a writer or an artist, then it seems that you must produce so many paintings, or books, or whatever as, say an automobile worker must process so many pieces of the overall car chassis. Particularly if you want to make a living at your art, you fall into the frame of mind in which you think that “each minute is valuable” – but what you mean is that each minute must be a minute of production. But each moment must be valuable in itself, whatever you do with it.
It certainly seems that the best way to get specific answers is to ask specific questions, and the rational mind thinks first of all of something like a list of questions…. She knows that no matter what she has been taught, she must to some degree forget the questions and the mood that accompanies them with one level of her consciousness, in order to create the proper kind of attention at another level of consciousness – an atmosphere that allows the answers to come even though they may be presented in a different way than that expected by the rational mind.
Trying to fit the great thrust of creativity into assembly-line time is in itself bound to lead to conflicts, dissatisfactions, and frustrations. If the proper creative and magical orientation is kept primarily in mind, other things will fall into place.
True creativity comes from enjoying the moments, which then fulfill themselves, and a part of the creative process is indeed the art of relaxation, the letting go, for that triggers magical activity….
…the ruler’s measurements have absolutely nothing to do with the measurements made by the heart….
The intellect is a great organizer, …so if this concentration is continued it begins to organize its perceptions and experience along the same lines. It is a kind of misguided attempt to find order by finding data that agree with itself. It collects evidence, then to prove its point, because the rational mind, as you understand it, must have an acceptable reason for everything.
No matter what tasks come before you, prioritize them to make time for your own interests. You may be onto something bigger than your daily chores and if you don't pursue the opportunity, you'll never forgive yourself.
Instead of moving from one thought to the next, we slow down and go deeper, and bring up old memories that are connected to the present situations. Take time to pull back into your protective shell. Spend some comfortable time at home or with your friends and family. But above all, create the time and space to nurture yourself.
Notes From The Magical Approach – Seth Speaks About the Art of Creative Living by Jane Roberts
About Time:
The time that any artistic creation is involved with follows earth’s own time however. The creator’s time rises out of the seasons and the tides, even though in your society you make a great effort to fit the creator’s time into what I call assembly-time time. If you are a writer or an artist, then it seems that you must produce so many paintings, or books, or whatever as, say an automobile worker must process so many pieces of the overall car chassis. Particularly if you want to make a living at your art, you fall into the frame of mind in which you think that “each minute is valuable” – but what you mean is that each minute must be a minute of production. But each moment must be valuable in itself, whatever you do with it.
It certainly seems that the best way to get specific answers is to ask specific questions, and the rational mind thinks first of all of something like a list of questions…. She knows that no matter what she has been taught, she must to some degree forget the questions and the mood that accompanies them with one level of her consciousness, in order to create the proper kind of attention at another level of consciousness – an atmosphere that allows the answers to come even though they may be presented in a different way than that expected by the rational mind.
Trying to fit the great thrust of creativity into assembly-line time is in itself bound to lead to conflicts, dissatisfactions, and frustrations. If the proper creative and magical orientation is kept primarily in mind, other things will fall into place.
True creativity comes from enjoying the moments, which then fulfill themselves, and a part of the creative process is indeed the art of relaxation, the letting go, for that triggers magical activity….
…the ruler’s measurements have absolutely nothing to do with the measurements made by the heart….
The intellect is a great organizer, …so if this concentration is continued it begins to organize its perceptions and experience along the same lines. It is a kind of misguided attempt to find order by finding data that agree with itself. It collects evidence, then to prove its point, because the rational mind, as you understand it, must have an acceptable reason for everything.
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